I just want to get away. I'm literally so overwhelmed that one night last week, I put a song on repeat, put my headphones on and fell asleep crying because I don't know what else to do. Talking about it doesn't do anything, crying is pointless and changes nothing but I just reached a point where I couldn't stop. I just desperately need a change or I have to be the change myself.
Not too long ago someone told you they loved the "idea" of you and there was a reason. You have everything in the world to be thankful for, including; family, great friends, a beautiful-but-sometimes-dopey dog, a job that will lead you to your dreams, and a relationship that was obviously meant to be. Although you hold people at arms length, these same people still care about you Michelle. Don't over analyze things and take a compliment for what it is. A wise person once told me that I was "only 27 years old and had the rest of my life ahead of me." If I hadn't truly listened to what that person had to say, I wouldn't be standing here so happily after some of the worst moments in my life. You've been given a gift; a situation where you're in control and time is the only true variable. If you need a change and can't do it on your own, extend a hand. If you're so sad that talking doesn't do anything, just listen to what others have to say. The timing in this world is never right but never hide how you really feel and never give up on something you know you can never have. Live life. And know just because you aren't where you wish you could be, such as on the beach instead of falling asleep crying with headphones on, that people care for you and just want you to be happy. Even if they don't receive a text back after hearing they could write whatever they wanted and not be judged ;). They still remain, hopeful of who they know you truly are, and patient to see those best qualities they once knew and know you're still capable of. Again, time is the only variable here. Good luck as I know after time you will be stronger once again. Oh, and I'll still be here at arms length to catch you if you fall.
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