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i miss having something to believe in. he yelled "father, why have you forsaken me?" and i'm wondering the same. always complaining about a life that doesn't go my way, wondering when things will become easier. and you suck it up. you cut your losses, and you don't hate what you've been given. you open your damn eyes to the world around you, and suddenly perspective lends you a new lease on life.

no one has forsaken me, except myself. it's a hard lesson to learn, but the day i pack my bags to leave it all behind, will i fully understand what it all means.

that's what i believe in.